I keep having the feeling that I want to go home, but I don't know where that is.
My emotions are up and down a lot, but mostly they're numb. I'm confused and unsure of a lot. School is kinda the only stable thing I have going right now, and while I need a break, I kinda don't want four weeks off. I kinda want to stay to my routine, even if it's busy. :(. Also, I really don't want to visit maine/nh....I'm being pressured to, and given shit for not going in november, but for some reason I just really don't want to go...maybe it's because it's so cold out and I said awhile ago I wasn't going to go visit once it got cold out...that's why I went pretty much every month over the Summer. Familial guilt trip's shitty.